Friday, February 24, 2012

Team Integrity

We accomplished what we came to do.
No, we didn't get on that stage in the limelight and take home the trophy (or the $10,000).
But we represented our school. And through that, our faith

I find this experience interesting on numerous dimensions:
with CUIBE, I didn't feel like a whole part of the team. Our team won, but I didn't feel the buy-in.
with Wake Forest, I gave dedicated focus to researching the company, attempting to understand and apply marketing principles to situations, work with a [diverse] team.. but didn't take the stage.

We represented BYU. We took chocolate-covered-cinammon-bears and gave them to other teams, genuinely cheered them on, but also worked incredibly hard on our own team.

Being back, I find it interesting that when people ask, "How was it?" they really are asking, "Did you win?" If you answer in the negative, then suddenly you accomplished nothing...

Odd how that is.

I learned almost more from not getting on stage than winning. for instance....5 Hour Energy drinks will never be for me. Chick-Fil-a for breakfast is interesting on the stomach. Gray suits are hot. Take video of every moment. Try not to lash out irrationally at teammates at 4:30 a.m. Also, I learned that you can work till you don't think it physically or mentally possible to contribute any more, but sometimes you just don't know what you don't know. and then you start to learn what you don't know when the winning team's strategy is announced. So.... take it, internalize it, learn from it, and return back to BYU with honor.

I feel like I've come back like a dog with its ears tucked down; I feel guilty to BYU faculty who trained and funded us--feel guilty that we didn't win. It's not like we played around. We worked to our best level, but you can't win 'em all. Well... you can if you're Wharton. :) ha ha I just wish expectations to win weren't placed on us, because that's not necessarily growth.


Wake Forest was incredible. Hands down

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Wake Forest eve


Nervous excitement for all that is ahead. 
Ryan, Tyler, and I are sharing a splendid Valentine's Day in Salt Lake. Watching a movie. Ready for our next week in each other's company. Wish us the best!

Sunday, February 12, 2012

1,2,3

my feet hit the pavement and in my head I focused on breathing in: 1,2,3; out: 1,2,3. I finally found the enjoyable rhythm of running. I went running both today as well as last night after a successful day: from Wednesday to Friday afternoon, our Wake Forest team (AKA my new family: Tyler, Ryan, Amie) practiced a case. Tell you what, I'm getting beat down of tiredness. but.... c'est la vie! This is the day. Every week we do a practice case, I grow so much as an individual and teammate. Learning to be open-minded, friendly.... and tired. :)

I took a break--treated myself to watching Mentalist, then Lord of the Rings with my WF group. Kay, Lord of the Rings was cool and all, but... wow. really long. maybe I was just more tired than I thought, but it was reaaaaalllly long.

crashed the minute I got home, and slept in to repent of my week of sleeplessness. then.. hit the pavement again.

Clara & I hit up town to get those essentials: the overwhelming nylons aisle, confusing cosmetics, and loving Valentines aisles. When I got home, I was delighted to see my name on a package in the mail. Adrienne, Nathan, and Elliott send a good luck or Wake Forest. I realized how much I love my family. Those little things make a big difference.

So.... 4:30 on a Saturday afternoon and I still haven't touched any homework.

Uh-oh.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

beware: funny moment

I say "beware" because my humor is nerdy.

So, at work I do research studies; we did a study recently that was on food consumption; consequently, we had these little cartons of milk left over. Every day [I'm shufflin']. Just kiddin'. Every day I hit up the work fridge and get me some calcium. Today was no different. drank my li'l milk box and headed to class. In my hands I had my laptop and a thick notebook, so as I went to grab the door, the remaining milk squoze inside the bottle and squirted out all over the door and handle.

I busted a gut. Some kid helped me with the door, but I was just a fit of giggles. As I joined my group in the classroom, I was all laughs.


Today was stellar.


And.... officially submitted to the stake president. Keep you posted!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

what love is

Valentine's Day is approaching, and love is in the air.

Noooooo, not that kind of love. The love I mean is  when....


your mom sends you new shoes she bought for herself because you mentioned that your shoes made your feet ache

those shoes mom sent had some small monies in them. :)

when you run with your best friend, she'll run behind you on the track so you can pick a wedgie

(yes, I just announced that on my blog....)

your roommate will stay up with you as you rant & rave about the latest happenings

your sister lets you mooch off her for free laundry services

your best friend invites you to Yogurtland's special deal day thingymajigger

your mom patiently answers the phone when you ask her the seventh cooking question of the day


when your best friend dutifully wakes you up every morning at 7:30 or 8:00 for scripture study

when your sister consistently reads and comments on your blog. ;) 
I do TOO exist!

Sunday, February 5, 2012

a beautiful case of life

Sundays are so fabulous....

I woke up a tad earlier than I wanted, but it turned out to be for the best: I got up, showered, chatted with Marzipan (my roommie), and started getting ready.

For what?

This is THE picture. :)
Well... for my picture. Y'know... the one a member of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles is going to see... no big deal or anything...

This is happening. So surely. Excitedly. I've been mulling for months over this decision, but I started the process once the new year began, knowing the answer would come in the process. And indeed it has. I'm going to serve as a full-time missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

Right at this second I feel so content, so happy. I want to capture this moment and draw from it in those dark moments where life seems impossible and difficult. Today I was reading through Nelchie and Adrienne's blogs, and I realized how much I love being a part of others' lives. Talking with mom on the phone. Eating deener with Kristie Krist. Pillow talk with Marzipan. Those in-between life moments with Nelchie. Facebooking Adrienne. Daily life happenings with Clara. Each person adds so much value and understanding to life, and I appreciate every. single. one. of. you.

my goal: blog more. share more. not just say more words, but open up a bit of who I am.

for example: yes, I am decided on serving a full-time mission. does that mean I have considered no other life options? certainly NOT. I've been up the wazoo about this decision. some people *cough cough* return home this year. internships await. graduation is closer than just around the corner. life is moving, constantly going, going, going. someday I'd love to have a li'l Els. :)

but, my focus is here. now. I'm experiencing a beautiful case of life.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

powerful wind. brilliant sunsets. sparkling waterfalls.

I have a lovecrush on life once again.
seems I got in a small, dangerous bout of self-pity. 


but, I realized everything I love about life:


7:30 a.m. scripture study with Clara... even if I'm still doped on Nyquil some of the time
Jenica's powerful words: "we're not preparing for life anymore... we're livin it!  livin the dream."
Realizing I kinda, sorta love being a nerd in my own *special* way. yes, I do homework on Friday nights... and I genuinely feel happy with life.
Running with Clara & Hilary in the bitter cold...smiles on our faces
Getting creative with making ends meet
Starting to make my journal cute...like old times 
Daydreaming
Deciding where I want to work: P&G
Realizing how incredible the experiences I've had while in school are, such as the Boston competition and soon Wake Forest in North Carolina. My excitement runs deep.
Cleaning my room in preparation for the tornado that always runs through it by 10 p.m., only to be cleaned again that same  night